Sewing seems to be taking a backseat to other things lately. I’m not stressing about it. I’m sure I’ll get back to it at some point.
Meanwhile, in what limited spare time I have I’m trying to make myself sketch more. I’ve been a back sketcher – and I shouldn’t be, because I really believe that just letting yourself play at something is the best creative outlet.
But sketching has, in the past few years, been just something of a frustration to me. The drawing are never as “good” as i think they should be. They never look like what I plan them to look like. It feels like, unless I work them up with the light table, scan and colour them, they are “finished” and worth looking at. So I end up just not doing it.
Something in one of the books or blogs I’ve been reading lately just struck a cord with me recently. It was something about remembering what you loved doing when you were little. Well, what I loved doing was drawing pictures. I drew them in lined paper notebooks because I never had access to blank paper. It never seemed to matter to me (though rest assured there are reams and reams of blank paper in my house now at all times, and my daughter, who has inherited my love of drawing, is always supplied with more blank sketchbooks than she could fill in a lifetime.)
Flash forward 3 years past a degree in illustration from Sheridan College (and then some) and it seems like I should be able to draw “better”. But when I sit down to sketch, my drawings aren’t vastly different than what I drew as a 12 year old. And that somehow drives me mental. Until I look at all of children’s books I’ve collected over the years, and some of favourites are the deceptively simple looking ones like John Birmingham and Quentin Blake.
Still, when I think about what I’d like to do when I grow up – I can think of only one thing I want to do: I’d like to illustrate children’s book. Maybe my style is simple looking. But … that’s my style.
Suddenly it hit me, that my drawing can, and probably should, be just like my Yermit creation… I should just start, and continue and see what comes out and not worry about the “plan” or even the final product. I should just draw.